I hope all of you have been doing well. In this post I want to discuss what has been on my mind lately, so don't expect anything too gay or nerdy. Recently, my thoughts have been mostly about health, fall and the little things I love.
Here we go!
As some of you may already know, I am not always in the best health mentally or physically and, for me, both of these things affect each other quite a bit. I am currently the fattest and heaviest I have ever been in my life. This fact makes me unhappy at times. When I look in the mirror I sometimes think that I am not pretty and that the fat is what is keeping me single. Thinking this way makes me unhappy, and then I eat my emotions, and BAM!: the never ending circle just gets worse and worse as other things happen and add on to it, such as money and living at home...
A few weeks ago, I was talking about this vicious circle with my mother and I told her that I hated the fact that I have no motivation. I wished that I would just get up and go for a walk or do anything to help change my situation. That night, I got angry at myself and decided to stop talking about wanting to change and to actually do something about it. I set my alarm clock for 4:30 a.m. and, the next morning, I got up and walked for an hour, took my shower and went to work. I had never been so proud, awake and happy at work in my life, or anywhere for that matter. So, for the past three weeks, except on Tuesdays, I have gotten up every morning at 4:30 a.m. to go for my walks. I arbitrarily chose Tuesday to be the day where I can sleep in. Do you know what I found out? That is usually the day I am least happy, so I might skip that break and just go walk every day.
As I mentioned, it has only been three weeks and I have not changed any of my other habits. Therefore, I can't say that I've become super healthy yet but, mental health-wise, these past weeks have been pretty good. I have had a lot more good days than bad, and I am proud of myself for having done this. So, yay me! 😊
Fall and the little things I love
I love fall.
I love the colour of the leaves.
I love taking out my jeans.
I love the smell of the air.
I love the foods that come with fall.
I love the warm blankets.
I love the warm beverages.
I love that, at the end of October, my best friend and I are going on a trip.
I love so many things that I could keep this list going forever. I absolutely adore fall and I am excited that it’s finally coming!
In this post, I mostly laid down a few of my thoughts for you all to read, and they’re mostly about the little things I’ve been doing recently to help myself get through some tough times: improving my routine and exercising, as well as making a list of things that make me happy. This one is fall themed, but I don't always thematize them. Doing these lists always makes me smile and remember that the world is a great place. You just have to stop and enjoy the small things.
I know this post is different from everything I’ve posted before, but I hope you enjoyed it. From now on, I might make a few more post where I just lay down my thoughts. Furthermore, feel free to let me know about some of the ways that you try and help yourself when you're down, and if you would like me to make more of these.
P.-S.: You may have noticed that I have changed my signature from Bi Nerd to Jess in this post. I did this because I felt like this was a more personal post and like the change was necessary for this reason. So, from time to time, I might sign as Jess when I feel a post is more personal.